Happiness and Joys

Here I am again finding the words, the thoughts to write...It is like everything I do is a struggle for me. There are so many things I want to do, to improve and yet I feel I don't know where to start. San nga ba?I've been reading and reading stuff about IMPROVEMENT as in all kinds like blogs, articles,books...etc. I even try my best to buy myself a magazine that will help me improve myself and my home but it seems those things I read are not enough to motivate me. I read in a blog I've been reading lately that to do things with enthusiasm and eagerness, you must unearth your core of what motivates you...so let me think...maybe I should rephrase or reword MOTIVATE instead INTO THESE QUESTIONS:

1. What relaxes me?
2.What makes me happy?or What makes me feel good?

Let me tackle the 2nd question, baka makapaisip-isip na rin ako.

• The beach and the sound of the waves.
• A windy day and feeling it on my face and hair.
• heart to heart talks with positive response from Jeffrey
• A hug from my daughter.
• Family "Harutan" time
• bank dates with Jeffrey
• A Phone call from my brother
• A sensible chat with my mom.
• My morning walk/jog at the church
• A romantic, "feel good "articles, movies that moves me and inspires me
• a productive day with no glitches
• a mile stone of a student done in my class.
• john loyd, aga muhlach, anne curtis or the ASAP family.
• a good laugh with Kat-ab.
• get togethers with Pat,Aries,Ria,Kerwin,Krisan and Richard
• afternoon office hour telebabad talks with Sunny.
• afternoon walks with teacher Jill.
• "Love talk" with younger generation
• being able to write and organize my thoughts.
• Cleaning and organizing spaces in my house.
• PAYING BILLS AND DEBTS.
• doing over due chores.
• eating out with family and friends.
• a good book.
• watching clouds.
• sunset
• giving a gift to someone who truly was happy when she received it.
• settling differences.
• being more assertive.
• being honest.
• reminiscing some teen memories.

I think there are so much more that makes me feel good but I could only think of these things just for now.

A Letter to God

Dear God,
Hi!! Just wanted to say thank you for today for the lessons I learned, for the angels you've sent, For never ever stopping to love me with all of your heart and even more than you can give. For always giving me second chances inspite of the enormous wasted chances you've given me. Please don't ever stop believing in me because if you do who else will? I know I am almost there...so stay with me.

What I Learned Today...

1. If you make a mistake.Don't dwell on it. Move On...

I am a person who who is not good in details. I tell myself I will be careful next time, I'll do this and that but the mistake happens every now and then...That's my life in a nutshell. What's worse, I dwell on it and stuff it in my brain and I'll make sure that I'll suffer thinking about the mistake I had and I hate it! I hate it!!!!I want it erased, deleted and completely forgotten but of course, its not that easy. I really, really need to work on this!(seriously)

2. Friends will come and go but there will be some that you'll keep for life.(really keep)

I have a lot of friends...I am friends with anybody I meet but of course just in a certain level but I am quite friendly with everyone that I am with. But I have friends that I will never let go. I don't see them often but when we do, it was just like yesterday all over again and then, I have a friend whom I see more often than usual but we never ran out of stories to share with one another. Thank God for these people, they keep me sane and repaired.And yes, they are my angels in disguise sent down from heaven to comfort me love me, need me and appreciate for what I am...

JUST DO IT!

10 minutes ago, I opened up my blog and stared at the blank page in front of me. Now what, di ko na naman alam kung anong isusulat ko but a few moments after...chatting with Patring ( a creative genious + fashionista ever) who gave me the blog address of another friend, Krisan na idol ko din pagdating sa pagkacreative in everthing she does...eto na nakapagsulat din ako, of course, nagbasa naman ako ng blog niya and I really got INGGIT to the highest level after reading her latest post. I tell myself I can do this too but why can't I, dami ko kasi laging hang-ups pwede ko naman gawin but knowing me sometimes my great ideas just seem to stay wherever they are and just stay there in my brain...no follow through pero inisiip ko days seem to fly by so fast that you end up having regrets in the end and I don't want that anymore if I want to have a better way of living. I get inspired easily but just inspired...I have this tendency to settle and just make reasons ( a lot of it) and excuses which in the end is just full of crap...
Time is running short. Don't want to wake up one day heavily burdened telling smyself, "I should have done this or that..."That Nike tag line just fits this thought perfectly, JUST DO IT.

The Secret Dream

Its been quite a while since I last wrote but it has always been " secret dream" so when I finally had my own computer and got myself connected to unlimited internet connection I told myself maybe now I can fulfill this "secret dream". I used to write my thoughts everyday in pages of a mead notebook(widely ruled) or corporate planners given to me as a gift for Christmas. I write about my day, my anxieties, my joys and even letters to God. I hope you can forgive me if I make grammar or punctuation errors if you stumble upon this blog but I am going try at least each day as I write my days away...

Let's get It On!!!

wala talagang nagbasa!!!hmmppp pag sumikat to!!!!magsisis rin kayo kung bakit di niyo agad sinubaybayan tong blog ko bwahahahaha but di bale I will pretend that I have imaginary avid readers and fans na nagbabasa neto at pinaguusapan over lunch sa kanila kanilang mga office. Dati ko pa gustong maging writer yun nGa lang I was too young to have it all But I feel God has prepared me for this and its my time to SHAYYYYYN..!!!!Lets get it on...isusulat ko dito sa blog ang lahat lahat ng nalalaman ko sa shobees, sa sakit ng lipunan.Mga tips and PIECES (natutunan ko lang to today, NEVER SAY.."thank you for your advices) of advice. I will share with you all I know that has made me become the person that I am today (hellowwwww?ano na nga ba ko ngayon?)

blog,bog...whatever

My gosh, I did not know setting up a blog could be so sweaty!!!pinagpawisan akong mag-isip pen name ko pa lang, may nalalaman pa kong pag tingin sa thesaurus online para lang makacompose ng name ko. pati pag isip ng title neto...anyway, I've waited for a hundred dinosaurs before I am able to set up my blog...pano naman kasi I've also waited a hundred years to finally have my own computer. At laaaaasssstttttt, so i said theeeseeeee izzzzz it!!!even the color of the font was chosen carefully. Do you know that simultaneously...I am updating all of my accounts so I personalize it..multiply,friendster, messenger, additioner, dyebster at kung ano ano pang salitang nag eend sa "ster" at mga sites na pang usisa sa mga buhay buhay ng mga taong kaabigan,kaaway, ka lovelife mo dati...tingnan ko nga kung may matutuwa o magbabasa neto...